Today has been a blur of activity. The one exciting thing for me today was the fact I pretty much had a good sleep, and boy did I need it. I woke up around 4ish to visit the bathroom but managed to get back to sleep instead of my usual walking around the house for an hour or so.
When I did get back to sleep I had a pretty amazing dream... it was very vivid and when I told Ken about it today I could barely tell it since I was sobbing. I was standing outside an old white church, much like another one in our community, it wasn't our regular church, but it wasn't familiar either... a place I had never seen before. It was very bright and Nana was standing there, holding a tiny bundle. As I inched closer I saw a little face that was fast asleep in the blankets. She was smiling and rocking him. I just remember her saying how beautiful the baby was and then it was over and I was awake. I laid there trying to understand what I had just seen... but then I knew exactly what I had seen.... something I had been wanting and aching about since losing her back in May. She was holding our baby... she has been taking care of him. Perhaps I saw a glimpse of heaven, I don't know, but I do know that image of her holding that baby has helped some of the pain I have been feeling knowing she is missing the big day tomorrow.
Ok, I am totally crying again. Ugh, hormones are going CRAZY! Everything is setting me off today. Blah. After our slow start this morning, we dropped Ariel off with Stella so we could go to our appointments in Richmond. First up was our last doctor appointment, and we ended up sitting and waiting an hour. Our doctor felt bad since our visit was literally a few minutes. The exciting news was our surgery time got bumped up! Yes, instead of 9am, we are now at 745am! That means though we have to be at the hospital at 530am, ugh. Dad and Rita are coming over at 5am to stay with Ariel until she wakes up, and most likely before she does there will be a new baby. Whee!
After our appointment, we went to the hospital for some blood work and finalize some paperwork. As we finished up, a little cradle with a newborn came by us, probably from a surgery situation too since he was coming from the elevator. I got all excited and now I am so eager to get in and do this so I can have my burrito baby too, haha.
We then zipped to the mall as my last chance to find Ariel some shoes. With all the sales on now, it was the best time, so I just pushed myself. I found some indoor shoes for pre-school, little ugg like boots and some runners. Yay! Totally feel better knowing she has shoes, since she had that major foot growth spurt and NOTHING fit her anymore. Also snagged some jeans for Ken on sale, woot.
Came home and picked up Ariel from Stella's, and ordered a yummy dinner from the Boot. I needed something very filling... my last meal, haha. Now we are taking care of the last minute details, charging the many cameras and printing schedules for those taking care of Ariel... yes, I made a spread sheet, haha.
Finally, the belly shot... the last one perhaps (we will see, never say never I have learned). My little boy blue, we are coming to meet you... soon! Thank you everyone for your prayers and kind words. It really means a lot to us, and we can't wait to share our little boy with you all.
See ya in a few days... but I am sure Ken will be by for a quick update for me. Love ya!