J is for just because I wasn't stressed enough

Project 365 - Day 159

J is the letter of the day, for Jay! :)

Soooooooo... a lot has happened in the past 24 hours. A LOT! Needless to say my emotions have been going crazy, I have been feeling so on edge after dropping off that check yesterday morning... just as if I made the biggest mistake and yet unsure why. Don't get me wrong, at the time the fine arts preschool seemed like it 'could' work for us.... but personally, I was unsettled with things I saw during my visit to drop off the registration. I tried to block them from my head, figuring I was over analyzing it like I tend to do. However when the other mom called me today with her concerns, it became more clear that I wasn't crazy, this wasn't right.

Being overly emotional about signing Ariel up and now wanting to pull her had me stressed so I took the kids and went for a walk which led to an afternoon at the water park with lunch. Which led to my arms looking rather red. Eek! Trying to drink lots of water to make them lighten up before the wedding this weekend. Ugh. So so so stupid!

However, it was worth it. One of Ariel's classmates showed up and the girls had a fun time playing. It took my mind off things, which I needed. I had to step back and re-look at the situation.

So we came home and I ended up talking to someone on the board of the school who wanted to 'talk' after I sent my letter. Not much to say about it except that it left me crying. I just am so tired of going around in circles. It also didn't help that I was feeling helpless again about now having my kid in a school I wasn't feel 'excited' about, more so scared. I sat with my head in my hands and cried in front of Ariel. Something I don't tend to do. She came over in her childlike way and hugged me. I prayed that I was struggling and needed guidance... then something happened, the phone rang...

It was from the other mom about a preschool open house, TODAY! That had room! I grabbed the kids and raced over and walked into the most gorgeous room. It was huge, with big windows filled with natural light. The room was filled with fun toys, stations and the moment I saw it I felt at peace... then I met the teachers. I nearly started crying. They were PERFECT! I was nearly shaking, as I kept asking them, so you really have room?!

Ariel made her way around the room tying out all the toys, while the teachers interacted with her. They couldn't believe her verbal skills and were enjoying her enthusiasm for the room. If there was a Christian basis, it would have been exactly like her old school, so of course we will miss that, but at this stage of the game I am feeling SOOOOO blessed. My prayer was answered.... but now I had her signed up for 2 schools. Ugh. I called Ken to make the cut to the other one, and not much to my surprise the lady didn't really care, and nearly hung up on Ken.... tells ya something eh?

So its been one week since everything went down... we are finally in the light, I can relax and now Ariel is ready for fall. She told me the class was beautiful, she loved the teachers and she has a lovely picture she made hanging on our fridge. Life is good again.

Speaking of good... Ariel is popping up everywhere on American tv! I was told there was another sighting on 'Lifetime' during Reba episodes and then during the Today Show! Ugh, I sooooo want to see it, and keep watching the Jello facebook group in hopes they post it. Ok, its Glee night, must prepare the snacks, hee.